That’s what he called me. some dude in a chat site
Said he liked my name. a[x]sked what I looked like
I said “old crone,” looks don’t matter, blah dee blah
I was planting seeds in mud, so I thought. i said:
“let’s move it to the main room.” because this is getting creepy
guts shouting f*ck off
ego brain saying, “but maybe
he’s in trouble, needs help. I could save him…”
instead he saved me.
watched me in the main room, while I figured it out
always the N00b. All the details laid out
WTF she must be false
no one’s that stupid
*
Blong.
It was him again, private chat. he said, you will get eaten alive
on here
*
my guts shrivelled. was it true
Am I not the same as you
*
Wait, but did he know me?
Yes he must
the lust began in the words
in Broca’s trust
he’d hit the G-spot
You’re kikexsome nieve…mudwest mom
GUGle didn’t know. Not even DuckDuckGo
Well? Sofa-side, scientific husband?
while I waited, quaking, for the
translation of contraband.
Husband said, scratching head:
uh, I think he’s saying
you’re like some naiïve midwest mom
—he’s probably texting drunk.
Ohhhh.
Agents averted. In my mind
*
So i went looking for new (false?) friends
but without my overtyping 10-fingered paragraphs
in the “clean” chat
no one was talking.
meanwhile, in “uncensored”
it was shotguns and cheesecake. meth and pasta
or perhaps metaphorically. i couldn’t tell. i didn’t
know them that well. they shuuurre seemed to like it just swell.
saw farther up they’d called me green
while i’d been chatting with mr. mean
“I’m male. Is that ok?”
What the fuck could i say
this was only my second day
*
I felt alone
*
Status updates, in the kind of lines
that would get me eaten alive. you know, poetry schmoetry:
*
Marguerite137 is…
getting ready to drink coffee
contemplating the mud
shouting in a field
crying over fallen marguerites
laughing at tigers baring teeth.
- Updated seconds ago – Delete
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[Marguerite137 deleted. Avatar was a daisy.]
*
Tiger, to the next flower:
I like your name…
Image by Joe Robles on Unsplash Model unnamed.
Nadine inhales & exhales words & images from her current vantage point in the Zone of Emptiness, France. If you wish to contribute and/or show appreciation, please recommend/like and/or comment. Thank you for reading. 🖤
Edit 2018-12-10: reincarnation added. Edit 2019-02-02: reincarnation deleted.
