For Lucie RIP

Lucie… my mother… whose name means “bringer of light”… she was such a loving soul; everyone who met her loved her, except a few who found her scattered and hot-headed and emotional, and irritating for that… but she was the champion of life itself.

My dad taught me to strive for perfectionism, logic, truth… but my mom taught me it was okay to make mistakes. That we did not have to constantly erase. That we could screw up again and again and make something beautiful out of all that mud. That never, never was there a mistake we could not recover from.

To say sorry when we were wrong. Or even sometimes when we weren’t, if that helped love flow along. And that if we are sad, we should sing a quick song. To laugh through all our tears… to love onwards through the years.

She always, always fought for the underdog… if the underdog was poor, she would fight for them. If the poor shamed the rich, she would defend the highest-paid men.

She was a teacher, a giver, she taught in classrooms and at home… she made a home wherever she went. With all her art… and in music, and communications, most of her time was spent.

She knew five languages, and kept learning more… she’d let anyone at all in the door… unless they messed with her offspring. Then she might throttle them to the spiritual floor.

My mother, my mother… I can’t believe you’re gone. Yet I know you’re not, because I still sing your songs.

Thanks for all that you gave the world. There are not enough thanks to give.

In me, you’ve helped a tangled plant unfurl.

Lucie (Sept 1941- Jan 2020), circa 1977. Image likely taken by my dad, Donar, the main documentarian of the family, in those days. (For many years now he prefers to let things go, living mostly in the present moment… much as my mother/his wife, once did.)


17 thoughts on “For Lucie RIP

  1. A beautiful tribute for your mother. Your words were dripping with love and light.
    Truly affected by your words and appreciation of this wonderful woman.
    May she forever rest in peace.
    May your heart forever cling to her memory and find a loving peace.
    Be well.

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  2. I would like to have met Lucie, to have had the privilege of her friendship. She sounds like a delightful teacher, a wonderful mother, and a devoted friend. Your words bring her to life and keep her heart beating in the memories so eloquently shared. She will be singing with you from her heavenly perch! Thank you so much for sharing all those lessons learned. Priceless!! ❀

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  3. Such beautiful and intelligent words of wisdom πŸ€”πŸ‘ πŸ‘ Nadine…. Hello buddy, I have a good feeling that Mom is always watching and guiding you through it, all, especially during this chaotic time. Keep strong and let’s ride along πŸ€— πŸ€— πŸ€— πŸ˜ŠπŸ™‚πŸ€˜ πŸ•Š πŸ•Š πŸ’ƒ πŸ’ƒ

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  4. Not sure how I managed to miss this! It’s beautiful Nadine! Your Mum is not too far away! When you find yourself singing her songs she is definitely close by or sending you a message about something… xoxoxo

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